Personal Diaries for the better me

 ha... last week same time, how messy life had been and how hard has been the last week... Unimaginable that police was pulled in to control my husbands temper... But thats okay, despite the shame i feel, I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason. Om shakthi om... ' My schedule has got badly collapsed and i hardly have some hope... But I wont let it happen as i need to be strong for the sake of my two chweet little girls.... As the light at the end of the tunnel, my girls are my driving force of life... Gotta LIVE for them. To my husband... So, you address me mayira pudungi.... do you ever know how much it used to hurt earlier... But these days, i say that it actually is you... Literally boss... it is you... it is you plucks hairs from everywhere! So, you prove it right, anything you do, you blame and say it on others :P :P... And deep within, I was a little *** when someone from our apt addressed you with a bad word (Lava....***) So, you got provoked when he said tha...

Day 2 Target: Wake up by 7.00 AM Breakfast by 9.30 AM for everyone in the family. Should not miss as kitchen is already clean. Mobbing the kitchen floor Lunch cooking by 1.00 AM Clean the vessels and stove before bed time. No mobile after midnight Take kids down / play at home with them/ make them study for atleast 40 mins in  a stretch. Poor day... So many red... Gotta improve tomorrow.  Day 3 Target: Wake up by 7.00 AM Breakfast by 9.00 Leftover green gram masala is already there. Mobbing the house Lunch by 1.00 No mobile after 11.30 PM Spend 30 minutes with kids dedicatedly To whomsover it may concern part! Dear,  So, you eat more and more and more. Thats your problem. I hate men with pot bellies... PLease do not expect me to respond to your intimate calls with your sweaty body and pot belly. But, whatever you do should not bother me and I am working on it. Someday, i learn it to perfection! Challenge! When you cant have some cleanliness and responsibility, I can only ...

 Checklist of yesterdays milestones first: Day 1 checklish: Wake up by 7.00 AM  - Yay! The day started well! Finish cooking by 2.00 PM - What I made wasjust mutton kheema balls(kola urundai) and still finished only by 2.50 or so. Clean the vessels and stove before bed time No mobile until 12.00 PM and after midnight.(posting this blog after 12.00 am.... huh!) Take kids down for playing for atleast 40 minutes. Day 2 Target: Wake up by 7.00 AM Breakfast by 9.30 AM for everyone in the family. Should not miss as kitchen is already clean. Mobbing the kitchen floor Lunch cooking by 1.00 AM Clean the vessels and stove before bed time. No mobile after midnight Take kids down / play at home with them/ make them study for atleast 40 mins in  a stretch. If at all someone lands in this page and is interested such creating such task lists and being more organized and focussed on us... Please do join me in the comments. It will be definitely encouraging. To whomsover it may concern par...

 have been going through a lot since the last 4 years and the worst since Dec 2019(lets go into them, should the need be)..... I have been crying, stressing myself on things that are not in my limits, trying to change the habits of my partner and all things that will just not change for me; atleast in the near future. While I have realised I cannot change anything or anyone, the best  I can do is keep myself focused on what is in my control, and keep things and people off that i cannot control. Let me start simple with 5 things a day for Day 1: Day 1 target: Wake up by 7.00 AM Finish cooking by 2.00 PM Clean the vessels and stove before bed time No mobile until 12.00 PM and after midnight.(posting this blog after 12.00 am.... huh!) Take kids down for playing for atleast 40 minutes. Will keep you people honestly updated on how much I could follow. If at all anyone is landing in this blog without this blog being SE optimized, that was great, and please do join me in comments wit...